archivedthree

2005-12-16T00:39:00.000+08:00

mentally physically picadilly(?)

Le Feu!

2005-11-18T00:27:00.000+08:00

WE HAVE SHIFTED! *CLICK ME CLICK ME CLICK ME*

hahaha. right. RIGHT. bla. still finding blogskin :)
leave comments mean time. wait for tagboards to arrive. still in the factorie.

Blogger: I got nuts! :) :: Create Post

2005-11-16T18:58:00.000+08:00

We're about to shift blog again :D

2005-11-16T18:01:00.000+08:00

Stronghold In The Rain

Key: C

The rain may fall
Oh, let the thunders roar
But I will sing for you
If that is all I do

All these may shatter
Oh, my life may crumble
But I will bless your name
If that is all that's left

[Chorus]
So hold me, hold me, hold me
Hold me tight in your arms
So keep me, keep me, keep me
Keep me in your embrace...

So touch me, touch me, touch me
Oh, Spirit fall like rain
So take me, take me, take me
Take me deeper
[/Chorus]

The stars may fade
Oh, the skies may darken
But still I'll hold
Hold on to Your Love

The clouds may roll in
The wind might blow strong
But I'll be still
And know you are God

-Copyrighted product of intellectual property, Nick Chiam
Zhi Wen.
~~All~~Certain rights reserved.

P.S The chorus doesn't really sound right... but I'll leave it as it is anyway.

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Written in divine inspiration.
It's raining heavily now.
I will bless His name, if that's all I do.

Funny how the crossroads meet.
Something to ponder.

Look at that leaf blown away by the wind.
Woooossshhh.
So fragile.
So fragile.

2005-11-15T19:46:00.000+08:00

http://nick7.iblog.com

2005-11-14T13:57:00.000+08:00

aha! interesting interesting! :D:D:D:D:D

"...A new year, a whole new epoch in my life, same old same old. -inserts random expletive-. Still remember how behind and dumb I felt last year one week before the prelims where EVERY mother father son had finished mugging and I haven't even started. Then got unceremoniously raped inside out by the prelims. Now deja vu is setting in already. Normal studious people are already kneedeep into their work and discussing cheem shite like MRP and detente and integration and loci and whatever lan while my mind is still on how to bloody complete squares and LEARNING HOW TO DO FRACTIONAL CANCELLATIONS (PPC curve and what exactly the econs syllabus encompasses exactly in my case). Argh I'm so dead for promos. Why couldn't I have got my projected promos result for MYE and REALLY have ppl call me ah kong? At least them fail also got abit of kick.

I REALLY need to find that fabled oil tycoon's daughter before I get my ass hauled outta schl...." -an extract, on amoz [clickable] bloggie

wish i could blog like that :D

2005-11-14T12:23:00.000+08:00

behind every joy lies a pack of cruel disappointments.

2005-11-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

[nick7] Youths speak new internet lingo : "LOL, sometimes you really make me ROFL." says:
hahahahahaha

Käî Jûñ says:
i don't take boys

[nick7] Youths speak new internet lingo : "LOL, sometimes you really make me ROFL." says:
you take men

| gary | says:
yes.

Käî Jûñ says:
ya lor

Käî Jûñ says:
WHOOO HOOO!!

| gary | says:
babes?

Käî Jûñ says:
woah

Käî Jûñ says:
;D

2005-11-11T14:01:00.000+08:00

blog:

please read and click on the link (previous post). its fun.

hello readers. grins. i know you're there, just not tagging. come'on.. why so shy? hahaha. keep tagging :) it's kinda nice to know that you're reading, whoever you are. im changing blogskin soon (as usual.. well.. :D).. and the song, too, with the skin. ill be adding another self (ZILIAN! i know.. i know..) photo of me, and updating the links (adding blog explosion to the main list, too..) and advert spaces. ~~YOU might get featured! all you have to do is have my image link on your site, and post on a tag.~~) just going with the flow ;) got any ideas for better template? if not ill just make my own.. wahaha. been long since i last did that. hmm. GARY AND GERALD THE TWO CRAZY BLOGGERS HAVE STOPPED BLOGGING?! omgomgomgomg. well. things change. arh. again. change. annoying. mosquito. butt. nevermind. ha.

p.s tiff i know you're reading. you can run but you cant hide. muhahahahahaha.

cell group:

jackie's been having revelation(s) from God. or at least he claims so. ~~though both of us had the same vision for the cg~~. he's getting all puffed up cuz of it.

nick: hello! (: pray for ______ cuz of ______ k? and for me cuz i _______. yah k thanks.

jackie: i know. dont have to tell me already. God told me already. God told me.

nick: im just telling you.. don't have to get so puffed up dude

jackie: ok.

you guys. please dont backslide. your blood is in my hands. i dont wanna murder you :) ~~oh cuz i squishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLING!~~ but im serious :) oh and jackie deserves his portion of dignity and respect too. please do not put him down. God didnt put you down. he could have. he didnt. have the love of Christ in you. thankee. jackie has really done his best, or is doing is best. ~~cuz he squishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLING~~

im smiling too much in blogs. i should IRL too, yknow. hmm. make me. :p

ohoh YAY im already starting my laying foundation p1. wahahha. no nope im not proud about it. nope. im not puffed up. nope. not at all. nope :D

~~squishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLING.~~

random thoughts:

terrorism will strike singapore someday. its possible to see that, no? but thats not the point. singapore may be alert 99/100 times, but that 1/100 is enough to let off a bomb and destory nationwide trust in Singapore's security AND cause A LOT of distress and chaos in our country. i doubt singapore can be like nyc and get back into shape just a few seconds after chaos. we're a main target, yknow. thats the whole point. TERRORISING. TERROR. trust me, it will happen.

~~dont die cuz i squishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLING~~

well lets wait and see.
sit back and watch the island sink.
sigh.

today:

im pirating.
please dont let anyone see this.
shhhhhh.
ares rocks.
shhhhhh.

squishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLINGsquishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLINGsquishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLINGsquishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLINGsquishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLINGsquishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLINGsquishyoukissyoucaressyou LOVEYOUTOBITSANDPIECESOHDARLINDARLING

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i should stop making mistakes when posting.
this way, i wouldnt have to cancel ;)

2005-11-10T21:03:00.000+08:00

everyone! try this interesting thing (again, clickable):

lame love calculator result thing hahaha damn funny CLICK ME CLICK ME

thanks :)

2005-11-10T15:23:00.000+08:00

then again, how would a mosquito get into my butt in the first place?

then we ask, how can change get to me in the first place?
things wont change...

nah.

they do.

2005-11-10T14:20:00.000+08:00

change is very annoying. more annoying than a mosquito in my butt.

2005-11-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

i wanted that moment to last forever.

2005-11-08T12:56:00.000+08:00

hey everyone again. thoughts. ooh. im getting scolded for my previous post (MOTS) already. icic. wahahaha. i said, i repent :P gah. you should have been at the moment.

random thought bubbles burst:

-its amazing how some song lyrics can speak from your heart :) the way it connects just touches you. talking about music.. i found myself a new addiction! SMOOTH JAZZ :) acoustic alchemy fits the fill PERFECTLY. it rocks :) .. i know i know. all the new age flaming arrows. not all are bad. the dreamy texture is just nice.

-going for cwbs later on.
the message is gonna be great :)
right john? hahaha.

"..how you know..????????????????????"

dunno. by faith, alrite?

talking about church. im seriously getting irritated by people who STILL flame the church.argh.

-heh. i see people are getting sick. cough here cough there sneeze here sneeze there. rest lah. dun run about the shopping centres or go theme parks even as your nasal mucus is entering your mouth. its just ironic. just rest and enjoy your heads off later. please don't take that literally. its scary when people take things literally off my blog. petty misunderstandings can occur and whatsnot. so please, most things are just metaphors in that sense. err. something like that. i mean im just crapping in the only place i can do so. so spare me some slack alrite?

-yeayea, the talk about defamatory blogging and peeps going to jail just because they wanted ppl to spare them some slack so they can have to 'freedom' to flame people. in that case, all the indians must have thought 'dasdniasdckscasioasmdioaasd, next time, my kids wont blog, omgishohciaskldaiocaskldmaioasd' (and chinese too. oh gosh. im not racist. nope. nope.)

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here you go. solid ball.

okay. enough of xiaxue and her hey-look-at-my-huge-oh-no-that-is-wrong-everyone-likes-me-ha-ha-you-are-loser-okay posts.

enough of rambo's hey-what-the-hell-are-you-doing-here-im-the-omg-so-cool-guy-here-alrite-and-you-piss-me-off talk.

popularity doesnt really mean anyth. fame, is just.. chasing the wind! (aha! there, me quote from ~~november~~ bible ~~reading leh!~~! pat me on the shoulders 7x7 times and buy me quality ice cream kthxbye ). trying to get all cool and stuff (and being popular, unfortunately obvious) just mean getting more eyes screwed onto you. every mistake is a darn pithole with flying worms hungry for your tongue. it is that bad. some people have been asking me on my take on all these poser-bloggers. served on a silver platter.

xx.

and who wants to be xiaxue ANYWAY? trying to pretend to be oh-so-cool and trying hard to fake it out is HARD. and thats probably the only one thing ill admire about her. maybe - only - anyway. nobody likes her senseless spill of vulgarity around the premises. sometimes her oh-my-gosh-wise-wise-wise posts dont make sense, at all. so she gets around all the loopholes and crappy theology to prove her stance. makes her more of a bimbo than anyone she has criticised to be. her moral compass is seriously screwed. like, SCREWED (with bouncy springs -like BOING BOING - and maybe some loose nails). just the post on the toilets for the disabled is enough to piss me off. 'haha im off the thailand'. stay there and never come back. no one really likes you anyway, xx. im serious. they're just attached to you for your glory. :) MY TAKE. the only reason why certain posts are funny (on your BLOG anyway) is because YOU are making things look dumb (as story, as author).

joel.

not much elaboration really needed on this one.
who cares about a guy where everything pisses him off? when its watered down, its simply him WHINING about things. and what does that make that posed im-so-hot-and-cool-look-at-me attitude? a whining teenager, sitting by his bed, cradling his head on his two cupped hands, screaming and complaining about the spinning world. ranting away all you want, boy.

mots.

same about both xx and joel.
just cut on the crap.
~~but since mots IS crap, what's left? grins~~

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come on, flames, burn my way, come what may.
i dont care :)
seriously, now.
i dont.

leave tags or comments.
friendster testimonials [!!!!] even. hahaha. grins.
~~dont neglect your playstation, but your vegetables, etc.~~

P.S oh no, ive turned evil. hahahaha. alrite. STOP. return to the light. oh nick oh nick oh nick.

2005-11-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

The following website (clickable) is kinda interesting, if you excuse the vulgarity. It features the people the author simply dislike. The insults are kinda amusing to read. Grins.

+:-*mUsEuM-oRf-Tw1TzZz *-:+ It's a twit thing.

Just for promotion purposes, some "take-aways":

"...You don't need an idiot to know your Princess in Fairyland sucks. Don't blame it on the piano, the introduction was retarded because you couldn't keep on beat and when you started singing my hair stood so high and my whole body spasmed like I was going to throw myself off the building any moment.."

"..You need to get the facts straight man, your friend actually has a nicer voice than you. In fact, the moment you started to sing I had to grab something near me to prevent me from rising together with the hair on my arms. You cannot imagine how happy and blessed I felt when the song stopped to buffer and silence never sounded so good.."

"..
: , //t0Ng hUaxXx// , : is irritating the *beep* out of me.

When the bloody song first came out, I already thought that its' lyrics were stupid. And guess what? Twits simply WORSHIP the song. And I mean WORSHIP.

During the period of time where tONgHuA was so damn beeping popular, just click on any twit's blog. You CONFIRM + 100% GUARANTEE CHOP can see that small stupid window saying "nI kU zHe dUi wOr sHu0 t0NgHuA lI d0u sHi pIaN ReN dErxXx" accompanied with many asteriks commas and fullstops which don't mean anything at all, and you must click OK so that the beeping thing would go away..."

"..Well well well, I hope my eyes aren't failing me at such a tender age. But, what did I just see? No sight of any chicks, honestly. WHERE GOT CHICK? But her *ahem* rosy cheeks do manage to capture my attention. Heehee. I'm starting to get more freaked out as I proceed to look and what her mouth is doing.

Dengue Mosquito #1: Her cheeks are so inviting.. should we eat her? >:D
Dengue Mosquito #2: WTFJEWIHDID? AND RISK LOOKING AT HER "BEAUTIFUL" FACE? I STILL WANT TO SPREAD DENGUE ONE LEH, CB.."

"..Twits whose mentality can't withstand even the simplest re-sizing of photos in Adobe Photoshop, naturally seek comfort in something far more idiot proof, and in this case - MS Paint. Imagine all the functions MS Paint has in store for them, all the so called "photoshopping" they can do. Most importantly, ALL THE AMAZINGLY PRETTY PHOTOS OF THEMSELVES THEY CAN PUT ON FRIENDSTER AND CLAIM PHOTOSHOPPED!.."

..err. haha. shall stop here.

I REPENT. :)

have fun

2005-11-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

you are everywhere to me.. when i close my eyes..

2005-11-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

hello faithful blog readers :) you're audience is much appreciated. hahaha.

have been trying to perk my friendster profile a little. looks much better now. but not good enough. grins. same for the bloggie. will add more links. john cheo and andre jo. yep.

just some random thoughts.

its really irritating when people still try and arrow the church [chc to be precise] even though theres really nothing more they can do about it. but i thank God for pst kong :) he's a man of honour. truly. not anyone can do what he did.

lets talk philosophy.
later :p

2005-11-07T13:13:00.000+08:00

chillouts.

2005-11-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

take time to admire the following picture [click on link]

CONFESSION OF A GIRL TO NICK! *CLICK HERE*

...when things go wrong :P:P

2005-11-06T08:37:00.000+08:00

hmm. im always rushing :p

BAD TIME MANAGEMENT

-shakehead

2005-11-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

whoops! haha.
im gonna chiong 20 chapters before service tmrw.
lalala.

2005-11-05T13:18:00.000+08:00

im late!

oh well.

nvm.

i dunno what to think.

ahha.

off to j8.

2005-11-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

truly it takes a great deal out of a person to cry smiling.

2005-11-04T14:27:00.000+08:00

pas amour. pas haine. pas vous.

juste je.

2005-11-03T19:57:00.000+08:00

oh the petty things we do to please others.
PETTY THINGS.

yuck.

2005-11-03T19:17:00.000+08:00

I DO NOT LOOK LIKE JACKIE CHAN thingie is clickable :)

2005-11-03T18:54:00.000+08:00

take a moment and look at this crap:

I DO NOT LOOK LIKE JACKIE CHAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mm hmm.

look at that man. GAY FACTOR.
high int, high income, high sociability.
woohoo! perfect charm. WAHAHAHAHA.
come my lady, come come my lady..

2005-11-03T18:40:00.000+08:00

IM DESPERATE FOR MY OWN LAPTOP!! ARGHIE
mac or windows.

ahh.!!

2005-11-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

everything's changing fast! whoa. changing too fast, too furious. life just cant go easy on us eh. heh. guess its the way it is. bah. change is the only constant in life. what irony. STOP CHANGING :( yeayea. gotta move on. shouldnt take some stuff for granted. but i didnt take that for granted. anw its over. so MOVE ON whee (: .. sigh. :(. so many things are gone now. wow. in fact. even some friends are gone. close ones at that. or probably. SELF-ACCLAIMED CLOSE FRIENDS. just a passion on my part. not theirs. im used to being taken for granted. erm. i shouldnt be writing this down anyhoo. hmm.

this is depressing. shall talk about smth else.
~~which is, well, equally depressing.~~

had tried to organize a movie outing for some old friends.
some agreed, some didnt. well, those who agreed backed out one my one.
others gave lame excuses. or at least i thought so. then there were three left (including me) .. excluding, two. one dropped out. cuz of some lame reason. someone who valued money more than friendship at that. yep. the remaining one thought it was kinda crap to watch movie with me alone so i had to cancel the whole thing. out of the whole contact list i had asked, NONE accepted. and thought twice anyhoo. sigh. probably not their fault.

im not a very nice guy to hang out with eh :) nevermind. watching movie tomorrow alone. AGAIN. wow. beautiful. what life throws at me.

1) LIFE IS A PARADOXICAL IRONICAL NONSENSICAL CRAP
2) CHANGE IS COWDUNG IN A SWEET WRAPPER
3) SOME FRIENDS ARE JUST ANNOYING HYPOCRITES

i wish i could shout whatever to this.
but heh.
life is as such.

NOPE.

2005-11-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

persevere! whee.

2005-11-02T17:52:00.000+08:00

all this fuss about this blogskin would mean finding another blogskin :) and i wont get tired about it. wahaha. a quote: its my passion. erm. so cheesy. alrite nevermind. its moi probleme. so let me fight my own fight.

talking about fights. i guess ive to share this:

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its really effective when you start letting God fight the battles of your mind.
you dont fight it. God does.

".. Jesus Christ who is the peace that guards your heart .."

everytime you feel like giving up on yourself, dont just give in..
yeah, give up - give it up to God. fall on your knees and pray. God will come thru for you. trust me on this.

start reading on His Word and turn on the worship CD.
heh, you get the idea.
but most importantly, walk in the light. (:
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ohoh! worship cds. i got a radio/cd player of my own in my room! whoa. like finally :) yay. praise God. ~~i was suppose to get it earlier but cuz of some circumstances my parents felt wasnt exactly the favourable condition to buy a radio~~

its a real cheap one btw :p
costs lesser than 40 bucks and works as well as a 130 bucks one. Singaporean KIASUISM RULES! yeahyeahyeah.

bam.
blog later :p

2005-11-02T12:07:00.000+08:00

hahaha. HELLO world.

im off to lunch with someone i dunno.
or at least.. havent met yet.

alrites. eh. cwbs was great. absolutely.

whee im on a new road now.

goodbye.

2005-10-31T13:21:00.000+08:00

third thought. reading my past posts. -_-. omg.

2005-10-31T12:56:00.000+08:00

oh. ouch. now look who's shallow: http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2005/10/i-am-hungrrrrrry.html

dunno where to go.
bored.

no one wanna go out wid me!! ahhh.
fine ill just rot at home being a pitiful thing.
lalala.

2005-10-31T12:32:00.000+08:00

living on delicious cup noodles.

2005-10-28T05:57:00.000+08:00

bonjour!

hey. a weird trend. but fits the idomatic expression(s).
when im up everyone's taggin. when im down nobody's reading.
hahaha. alright. forget it. dont read then.

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i saw you
in the glass
i screamed
inside

:):) hhahaha.

got back my results. uhm. report book too. i currently hold the second position in class. however to my utter dismay my parents arent one bit happy. instead, they were disappointed.
its only half mark till i became top.
half mark away from the first.
arent they satisfied at all?
argh. im not tryin to please them anw.
its just irritating.
its really annoying when people do this to you.

but yay school's finally over but still ill have to return for CCA which i most prolly wont. ill cut ties with maris whenever i get the opportunity to. this isnt running away. this is being wise. or so i think. but its the best now. im not gonna get myself brainwashed like they are. bunch of noobs. bunch of idiots. yuck.

im nt lookin down on you.
just that the way you have carried yourself.
it clearly shows your personality.
the personality of the school affects the students.
and the students affect the personality of the school.
its a darn vicious cycle.

kkz. muuhahahahahahaha. o.O"

hmm. what now. learning french. adam's gone away for 5 weeks. finally having guitar lessons with mengru. prayer life suddenly droped sharply. almost completed bible reading. no friends coming for cg/service contrary to what i had promised sis yv. a part of me is missing.

there should be some changes to the bloggie during the holidays.
yea. whee :]

you and you and you and You. oh no, now theres you.
omg. cant say i dont love you no more.

rain outside my window pourin' down what now you're gone im 'fool im sorry feeling like a fool cuz i've let you down but'its'too late you're gone ..

woooosh.shhhh.itsraining.feelthethunderinyourskin.woosh.boom.flash.flash.flash.yourgone.

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the mask says:
NICK IS EXTREMELY HAPPY :)

2005-10-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

i love you
you know.

2005-10-27T15:23:00.000+08:00

nth to do for hols.
yep.
stone.

2005-10-26T19:18:00.000+08:00

was doing mtv dance and the pain in my left arm got worse.
pop here pop there pop everywhere.

the mask stays on.
day 3.

2005-10-25T21:15:00.000+08:00

it hurts. but it doesnt matter to you anyway.
it doesnt matter to anyone.

back to bed.

2005-10-25T17:04:00.000+08:00

the mask stays on.

2005-10-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

if i had really wanted to confide in someone why did i say i was kidding?
dumb me.

i lay there alone crying with this stabbing pain.
tears in vain.
tears in pain.

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the mask is back on.
i put the mask back on.
the mask stays on.

2005-10-22T21:59:00.000+08:00

you can never tear me away. watch.

2005-10-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

although i didnt complete the 50% weightage question for lit...

chinese - a1 [topped class]
science - a2
english lit - 32.5/60 [ still, from top in class and level to this.. ]

.. sian.

2005-10-19T18:49:00.000+08:00

have been feeling extremely restless and headachie lately. do pray for me. only slept 3 hours ysd cuz i kept tossing and turning. and at times giddy. but no fever etc lah. just .. weird. hmm. but thanks for those who prayed. a little better already. i do suspect something. but nevermind about that.

maybe some of you get the hint alr.
but no lah. not sickness or disease.

ill be fine. :)
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hahaha. im back!! :) just realised i do have regular readers. yay. haha. saw this comic the other day but didnt blog about it. in the past, people used to keep diaries and hate people to read them. now, people keep blogs and want people to read them. lol. the irony of change! wahaha. what were we thinking then? hmms. its kinda weird. i still dont get the logic. there is no logic -.-'

ohoh talking about logic i read this logic book the other day. not interesting. but talking about reading this logic book (was at bookstore browsing through some books) i flipped thru this book called "Adam's Curse". it claims that research and survey shows a shocking result: males will be extinct in times to come because the female bio in slowly cannibalizing the Y chromosone as time passes by. its getting shorter. whatever that means man. arghie. men will not be extint. :p. its just WRONG. a world with purely women. arhgie. anw.. think about it.. if it was true.. what would the men at the last stages of evolution look like? whoops. ohoh and they claim that by then it would be possible for women to go into women and reproduce. CRAP.

that was yesterday. watched corpse bride. lame show -.-' dun waste your money. skeleton key is another lame show. dun waste your money. cuz it alr wasted mine. i wanna watch ocean something and flight plan!! nice nice :) transporter 2 too much action. boring. i watched corpse bride ALONE. this is a sad case. i usually watch movies alone nowadays. everyone's either with their own friends or busy. whats wrong with them. no, whats wrong with ME. hmm. fine i shall remain antisocial. ANTIsocial. wooho. anti you. go away. shoo :p

got back a few papers today. i praise God:

english - A1 [top across the level, 1/342++]
history - A1 [top in the class, top three across the level]
maths - B3 [ .. among the top 5 in class. yuck. cant do man. ]
dnt - 36/60
art - A1 [among the top 5 in class! :)]

i didnt get straight As this time. but at least im still at the top.
WHATS WRONG WITH MY MATHS. ISNT IT SIMPLE. 1+1=7! ..
.. 2.
or is it? hmm. dunno.

weehee.

gotta give Him.. gotta give Him.. gotta give Him.. gotta give Him the GLORY.. THE GLORY.. gotta give Him.. gotta give Him.. gotta give Him.. gotta give Him the GLORY.. THE GLORY..

... i dun think i can make it to sentosa anw. haiz.

2005-10-17T22:08:00.000+08:00

im trying my best to stand in the gap and make the difference. to be the one who takes the first step and carry the burden. im stepping out of my comfort zone and crossing the line. im already taking the first step but everything is so shaky. so shaky. so unstable.

God be my strength.
this is it. no more looking back.
but what's ahead?

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marking day tomorrow. nth better to do. literally.
probably walking around town. or something.
no one's free to go out with me anyway.
lalala. alone always.

who watches a movie alone anyway?
heh, i always do.

taggies.

2005-10-16T21:43:00.000+08:00

im falling in love again.

with God and with you.

im sorry in advance.
you'll know.
if your reading this after it happens,
im sorry.
i just wanted the best for you.

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matheus! LET ME PAY CG FUND.
:) .. other than that .. service was great :)

2005-10-16T09:12:00.000+08:00

yay!! people are tagging me everyday! woohoo. happy happy :) continue continue :P:p the best feeling you can give to a blogger is a sense of appreciation and interaction.. yeayeayea.

going for service :]
..and movie!!

diaodiao.

2005-10-15T08:46:00.000+08:00

went browsing at blogskins for the skins that suit your criteria and found one.
although it doesnt really suit some of mine. maybe you'll like it. but..
hahaha. yea. good exercise for the eyes :) comment on tag board please!! :]

understood most of you better. think its a good thing? hmm. we'll see. after being together for so long as friends with you guys. i think its only natural. but bonding brings friction. nevermind. all the philosophies of life again :p grins. anyway lets chunk this aside and start anew :) with myself and with God.

tuition at nine. blahblah.
woohoo.
yea.

2005-10-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

heh. its over.

2005-10-13T05:53:00.000+08:00

piang. i hit the dead end.

2005-10-12T17:00:00.000+08:00

an extract from my quiz result:

"..You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. "

2005-10-12T12:06:00.000+08:00

this new skin seem to be causing some problems like explorer breakdowns. nevermind. shall see how it goes (: ill change if i get complaints.

art paper today :) thank God for wisdom. wahaha. i got thru again! lala.

2005-10-11T21:44:00.000+08:00

HOLDING ON TO A HOPE I CANT SEE.

HOLDING ON.

WHOOPS THE LINE SNAPPED.

IM FALLING.

FALLING.

I HIT THE GROUND.
THERE IS NO GROUND.

IM FALLING.

FALLING.

HOLDING ON TO A HOPE I CANT SEE

I LETTING GO.

IM FALLING.

AND IM ALONE.
ALONE IN THIS PAIN.

2005-10-11T05:50:00.000+08:00

woohoo. finally got time to post something worthy of note. uhm. maybe not -_-' alright in any case lemme recap a little. the vague thoughts.. hmm.

saturday! cell group meeting. i didnt know that it was the last cgm with n154!! argh. nevermind. i got faith we'll combine again someday :) like cinthia mentioned, it was different. kinda weird. it was like.. k forget it. shant use that phrase. then had bible study with sister yvonne at bishan. and what did i eat? french fries. dinner. heh. or so i thought :p after than aug sms-ed me and told me to take a cabbie home cuz everyone's waitin' for me so we could eat together. yepyeps. however there were some fights. thankfully its not cuz of me. but still it was crazy and ridiulous. argh. yay. thanks mengru (: for a lot of things. haha. bible study: spiritual warfare! slay all the demons and kick their butts! piang piang.. cant really remember the rest of what happened. i cut my finger on the first string of the guitar. lol.

sunday! church. i thought it was some other pastor speaking. indeed it was :p k that sentence was crap. anw it was great (: tim was trying to emphasize how fantastic the preacher's accent was... full of gasto and stuff. wahaha. everything i can see with im physical eye and inward man is subject to change! all is but God alone for He is the Author of change! yay! at least i got a Person like that on my side :) ~~or so i think.. sigh~~ i cant really remember what happened after that.. oh yea oh yea.. went to coffee shop but along the way jackie zH and i looked back and saw that no one was following us (they were a short while ago).. a bit of investigation showed that they were alr on the charted bus. hmm. kinda shocking but not surprising. a little disappointing. though jackie was very much disappointed. sigh. right but nevermind (: after much discussion we decided to head for JP! jurong point.. jurong point.. x999.. ate lj. whoops. ljs. long john silvers. k. cough. and i was really hungry lar. no elaboration needed. accuried a new strumming skill!

monday! TIRED STRESSFUL WDV. but God made a way for me :) "..i know my God saved the day (and) i know His Word never fails.." .. yeah, admittedly, His Word DID carry me :) yepyep. there is power. POWER. repeat after moi, POWER. POWER! wahahaha. power pwoer power. had.. some test. cant remember. uhm.. OH. science test. bio, chem, and physics.. separate papers slammed into one time slot. finished in time thankfully. yeah. yeah. did somemore situps. crunches. reverse crunches. dips. pushups. dumbells. went to sleep early cuz i didnt feel like playing cmptr games anymore.. haha. was kinda. SIAN. yeah. thats the word! SIAN.

i feel different today. maybe thats why ANOTHER OF MY PERSONALITY IS EMERGING. omgish. im going nuts.

maths paper today. im gonna slay (:

leave a comment [tag..] ..

ciao.

2005-10-10T20:21:00.000+08:00

i have high hopes for the betterment of things.
things will change.
will change.

they have to.

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2005-10-07T10:38:00.000+08:00

Robbie Williams - Better Man

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been told
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around

I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

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history today.
how ironic.

2005-10-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

its starting to feel really unfair. so everyone has the right the vent their anger on me and i have no right to lose my temper even once?

when they are upset i try my best to cheer them up and when im down people just heck care?

do i have to be the one who always give in to you guys?
why is it that im always taken for granted?

why is it that im always the one saying sorrry?!

ive no right to hate anyone - and is forced to love them - and yet people have the right to hate me? why is it always a one way thing?

dont you guys understand that im human too?!
i dont need care and i dont need concern eh?!
i wont feel tired eh?!

im always the weird irritating act-smart guy who doesnt really have any friends lah?! im not anyone that you guys should like.. just another weird antisocial guy who doesnt really know how to relate to people lah.

heh. so much for being confident.

why is it im never good enough for you guys?
ive really tried my best till im at the brink.
~~heh i broke down yesterday night. but no one cared anyway~~

argh. so much in me that i want to vent.
but NO. NICK NOT SUPPOSE TO BE ANGRY.
NICK SUPPOSE TO CHEER ME UP. NICK SUPPOSE TO BE CUTE. NICK SUPPOSE TO BE SLOW TO ANGER. NICK SHOULD NEVER BE ANGRY. NICK MUST ALWAYS BE PERFECT. ONCE NICK DOES A MISTAKE WE SHOULD ALL CONDEMN HIM, DISREGARDING THE EVENTS HAPPENING BEHIND THE SCENE. NO, NICK, BE SLOW TO ANGER. YOU ARENT HUMAN. YOU MUST BE PERFECT. HELP ME. WHY YOU A BIT ONLY ANGRY ARH, NICK?!

im tired of always trying to please you guys.
im beat. im tired. ive had enough.

and above all these crap I HAVE MARIS STELLA to handle.
ARGH.

no more tears to shed.

2005-10-02T22:23:00.000+08:00

how does it feel when it hurts
and you cant do anything about it

how does it feel when you cant tear down the mask
that you had made

how does it feel when everything doesnt really matter anymore
and the only thing that does seems so far away

how does it feel to cry in the dark in the quiet
and when you stare at your phone no one seems to care

and how does it feel to be inferior

2005-09-28T06:00:00.000+08:00

yep, the usual exam rush.
red bull gives you wings!

2005-09-26T20:24:00.000+08:00

i will carry you.

2005-09-25T16:58:00.000+08:00

saw another happy family on the mrt.
i want that :) and i will get it.

what do you call a bird that goes, "kuku! kuku!"
..uhm.. a KUKUBIRD.
dont let your mind wander. grins.

argh. should've brought my study materials with me.
if i did, then i would be...

2005-09-24T22:03:00.001+08:00

second blog :)

http://whytlite.blogs.friendster.com/like_the_wind/

2005-09-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

its the weekends already! :)

2005-09-22T22:32:00.000+08:00

i would like to ask

WHY?

2005-09-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

wahahaha i love this font :) ..and the song... and the layout. whee everything's just great. ive been hooked on this song and another one from the same artiste for years already. the lyrics are quite nice you know.. and the music.. you know, the overall thingie :p

there's this crazy guy in my class who recently started shouting at me everytime he passes me (or i pass him vice versa).. things like, "get away from me!" "show-off!" "act!" "liar!".. and im like.. whoo. what the heck. but anyways its a classic example of jealousy. and strangely everyone else thinks im humble and nice. heheh. *halo*

and talking about class.. i find myself not being to concentrate, and getting tired more often. argh. nick here needs more sleep. throw him the pillow.. NOW! *POW* .. mm. and i also find myself busy doing assessment books under the desk while the teachers are ranting away. im listening of course :) i remember training this art of multitasking with my friends some time ago.. haiz. the days to remember. those are swwwwweeeeeeet days. too bad i didnt cherish them at that time.

so you guys were right.

hmm. well, its already the middle of the week and tomorrow would be the last two days. haha super stressed and cropped up with projects, revision and homework. and on top of that other stuff to handle. but exams are coming in like a week's time... and its the final stage of battle to prove myself superior and thereafter opening new doors of opportunity to escape a terrible death in maris stella. potention is coming :) .. err wait, its already there.

tuition later. :) whee. somehow im looking forward to tuition already. maybe its because every lesson would mean one more step away from maris stella into a better school (or so i think). in any case its coming. 7.32pm. grins.

then after that would be family BBQ! my parents are jobless for a while now (that explains the financial tightness).. and they've decided to try selling chicken wings and whatsnot. haha. should be quite delicious. so they're trying out grilling the wings themselves later on. woohoo. get to kop some sia!!

it's really a short term.
everyone's working hard for the end year exam.. whether N or O .. and i should too! grins.

cya guys around. :))

2005-09-20T16:28:00.000+08:00

Heat can never pass spontaneously from a colder to a hotter body. As a result of this fact, natural processes that involve energy transfer must have one direction, and all natural processes are irreversible. This law also predicts that the entropy of an isolated system always increases with time. Entropy is the measure of the disorder or randomness of energy and matter in a system. Because of the second law of thermodynamics both energy and matter in the Universe are becoming less useful as time goes on. Perfect order in the Universe occurred the instance after the Big Bang when energy and matter and all of the forces of the Universe were unified.

2005-09-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

so many projects to complete within such a short span of time, above all the other problems in my life and expectations to live up to. time is passing like water in my hands.

ever felt like you cant grab hold of your life..
and you dont want a break;
you need a break.

2005-09-19T15:02:00.000+08:00

its a miracle im back from school :)
ptl.

leave a taggie!

2005-09-19T05:50:00.000+08:00

TIAN KONG XIA QI YI ZHEN YU
(DRIZZLING RAIN)
(Mandarin)

tian kong xia qi yi zhen yu
xi jing di shang suo you wu hui de dong xi
hai hao you ba san zhe yu
cai neng shun li lai dao zhe li

tian kong xia qi yi zhen yu
tu ran xiang qi wo men mei hao de guo qu
zhuan yan jian jiu dao tu jing
zai jian yi hou neng fou xiang ju

ni he wo zhi jian zhe duan you yi
wo hui hao hao qu zhen xi
bu hui rang ta cheng ji yi
tian xia wu bu san yan xi
zhe bu dai biao wo men xu yao shuo fen li

wo men zhe duan you yi
jing guo duo shao de mo li
cai you jin ri de qin jin
rang wo men yi qi mai jin
chuang zao hui yi
yi sheng yi shi de dong xi

tian kong xia qi yi zhen yu
hao si zai wei wo men huan xi er ku qi
na ba san yi tong zhe yu
rang wo men yi qi qing he you yi

tian kong xia qi yi zhen yu
shou li na zhe yi ben chen jiu de ri ji
xie xia wo men de you xi
wo men de guo qu chong man ji yi

tian kong xia qi yi zhen yu
yan jing wei he tu ran jue de shi shi di
you ni men xiang yi wei ming
shi wo sheng ming li zui xuan de dong xi

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its just morning, and im exhausted already.
i need strength for the rest of the day.
im tired. so tired.

2005-09-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

these songs are bringing back the feel of the past.
its great, but yet seem to bring the sting of pain.

i want to relive them and change them.

2005-09-18T23:17:00.000+08:00

stupid nightmares.

its monday again tomorrow. that means another full solid week to conquer. but im still tired. weekends should be made longer. hmm. maybe there can be an international change. monday becomes a weekend too! :) that way, no more monday blues. yay. sigh.

cell group meeting on saturday was awesome.
it was the first time i felt such a powerful annointing upon me as i prayed for someone. i laid both hands on matheus and started praying hard. then he started shaking violently and i felt this pulsating power in my hands. later on he started laughing and stuff. hmm. great outpouring of the holy spirit. and what have i done to deserve that? grins.

service was great too.
healings and stuff.
ptl :)

so many things running through my mind right now.
yeah, RUNNING.
this is getting irritating.

2005-09-17T23:05:00.000+08:00

amor omnia vincit

2005-09-15T23:33:00.000+08:00

ive made a long reply to that thread.
do visit and give comments :p

http://info.channelnewsasia.com/bb/viewtopic.php?t=12661&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=80

argh.
ignorant people.

Channelnewsasia Forum :: View topic - Sun Ho's 'Without Love' is top in US and UK Dance Charts!

2005-09-15T18:11:00.000+08:00

everyone, visit the below thread and read the posts until the last page. indeed, such is happening out there in the media..

http://info.channelnewsasia.com/bb/viewtopic.php?t=12661&postdays=0&postorder=asc&start=20

after reading, i had to control the extreme urge to slap those people till they bleed from their eyes.

you'll know what i mean after reading.

2005-09-14T22:02:00.000+08:00

choir audition.

2005-09-13T05:40:00.000+08:00

nick's extremely tired.

2005-09-12T00:47:00.000+08:00

no one is to see me cry.

2005-09-10T18:25:00.000+08:00

guess nick's back into depression again.

2005-09-09T16:29:00.000+08:00

HABIT. Take away the H and you'll still have ABIT. Take away the A and you'll still have BIT. Take away the B and you'll still have IT. The only way to eradicate the I... is to take up the T.
-Galvin [http://galvin.worshipsingapore.com]

2005-09-06T20:03:00.000+08:00

Now as He sat on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to Him privately, saying, "Tell us, when will these things be? And what will be the sign of Your coming, and of the end of the age?"
And Jesus answered and said to them: "Take heed that no one deceives you. For many will come in My name, saying, 'I am the Christ,' and will deceive many. And you will hear of wars and rumors of wars. See that you are not troubled; for all these things must come to pass, but the end is not yet. For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. And there will be famines, pestilences, and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of sorrows.
Then they will deliver you up to tribulation and kill you, and you will be hated by all nations for My name's sake. And then many will be offended, will betray one another, and will hate one another. Then many false prophets will rise up and deceive many. And because lawlessness will abound, the love of many will grow cold. But he who endures to the end shall be saved. And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in all the world as a witness to all the nations, and then the end will come.

the end really is coming. im saying this in the light of the recent news about the guy who claims to be the Son of God, like Jesus. everything is happening and collectively, it is easy to see that the return of the Lord is really coming very soon. i urge you guys to get a little restless and a little urgent for soul-winning, to bring in the harvest before it is too late. im serious guys. and start repenting for every sin every day, and dont take this faith walk casually. the rapture can happen any moment and you dont wanna be caught sinning. when He returns, we have to be found blameless. the nations will be placed before Him to judge, so let us all be prepared for that Perfect Day.

its simple. either you go to heaven, or you go to hell. heaven, if you are found righteous and have ran the good race, fought the good fight. hell, if you are found sinful and without repentance.

a glimpse at what hell is like? eternal pain, anguish, sorrow, depression to the very extreme. you can scream there, and no one bothers. God shuts His ears.

and honestly, as much as i hate someone, i cannot bear to see them burn in hell.
because if you study the Bible, hell is really something beyond imagination. and... err, i take back what i said on my previous post :)

maggots eating on your flesh (worms crawling in and out of your eyes and ears and nose) while your whole body burns without disintergrating.. and all these will falling into a bottomless pit. and more. you dont wanan find out. its total pain and anguish.

heaven, on the other hand.. well, is simple - heaven.
you get the idea.

no more playing of games.
lets get serious and fight this fight.
finish well.

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i hope i clicked something in you.
ciao.

2005-09-05T13:56:00.000+08:00

honestly, it wouldnt hurt me one bit to see her burn in hell.

2005-09-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

some updates.

2005-09-03T09:59:00.000+08:00

deleted the last post for rather obvious reasons. and its spamming the blog too. whatever the case is.. the blog's my vent box :] .. err, since ive no where else for that :p im feeling better already. last night was supposed to be a turning point. well, it was a turning point alright - turning even more toward the wrong way. sinking deeper and steering worse. and its not like the more a steer the more a get back on track 'cause of the 180 degree thing. im sinking deeper at the same time - which means every turn is a different turn, and a worse one too. im not sharing. its just a lot of family and me. more about me anyway. i cant just say 'whatever' and shake it off. its a very real thing.

maybe i shall stretch my hands out and await Him to grab hold of me and pull me out. right now. yes, right now. im looking towards a bright future - which is stained black now - and forcing a smile. go nick, go. run!

hey, look, i fell.

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just ordered macdonalds (: big breakfast slammed straight into my hungry mouth just by liftin the phone. whee :] new meaning to : im lovin' it. oh yeah oh yeah. going to jon's house to do some chinese history project thingie. i hate ancient chinese. china. whatever. all that crap -_-' .. all the different dynasty and culture and religion and people and skills to remember.

with my own eyes i see people change for the better
get what they always had wanted

argh.

what about me.
ciao.

2005-08-29T20:27:00.000+08:00

ok lets see how a mechanism - such as blogger - can relieve ones stress, as of which im feeling right now. absolute frustration and emotional fatigue. this cannot go on any longer. in any case im just human, and i can breakdown too. i need rest too.

im starting to hate my school. like really hate. and its not a good thing. how am i suppose to reach out to them if i hate them so? i mean i've to actually step into their lives and help them and heal their hurts + meet their needs. seems impossbile.

let the impossible become possbile.
let it be.

2005-08-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

conquer the mountain and we'll reach the horizon. its never been done before, so lets do it (: service today was great. everyone will do it together, as a church, as a team, as a family, as great friends. yeah. lets prophesy and take the nations by storm.

2005-08-26T20:54:00.000+08:00

no one cared.

2005-08-26T19:52:00.000+08:00

behold the glory of the heavens are leaking out;
the beauty of His praise shines.

Lord you are always here with me
there is no changing God in Thee
You are the same
yesterday and today
and forevermore...

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muhahaha.
going to watch theMaid with kaijun on sunday.
hope he dun last minute backout.
i was very tempted to put theMaid fullsize picture here.. but then again, i figured she(or.. it) would stay on my blog for some time.. so it would be quite scary - esp after i have watched it.

..thunder in my head..
..swimming forever (swimming forever[swimming forever])..

everyone..
please tag :p

2005-08-25T14:13:00.000+08:00

just got back my results and the marks are tabulated:

english - a2
chinese - a1
maths - a2
science - a2
history - a1
dnt - distinction

straight a's :)

somethings happened today that triggered back the same hatred i have for maris stella. i hope the passion for the lost is enough to wear it down. bring be back to love, Lord.. bring be back to love.

it also triggered a passion to be a prayer warrior.
and so it shall be done according to His will.

happy birthday mengru.

ciao.

2005-08-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

the wind of change blow in the face of time

2005-08-22T20:59:00.000+08:00

wow. way cool.

go away
maris stella.
go away.

had an extremely heavy dinner.. like bakuteh.. wahahaha. hope the tea helps. if not id have to visit the gym sometime this week again. haha. cannot destroy my ab-building mission! cannot! haha. cell group on saturday was great. the power just rushed in and people starting wailing away. it just rock :) if only we can do that every week.. cell group would be something to look forward to - a lot.
:)

adding some new features so do check back.
like songs, maybe a new tag board and some other mysteries :p

yepyep.
photos for today will be put up together with tomorrow's.
took some random feel-the-moment pics.

--

tuition cancelled for today :)
whee. hahaha. love God!
i'm sick of school. really. i never thought i would come to this stage. err, maybe i did. lots. i got over it. but now the feeling is back. the same draining feeling. sickening. totally disgusted.

i'm SET on a transfer.
i'm off to find MY horizon.
..with God :)

even as i tear away in my heart
even as i scream in my soul
even as my mind refuse to hear
even as my head spins inside
even as i cry away at night
even as i shout back at You
even as i doubt in Your love

Love never fails.
You never fail.

thank you.

2005-08-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

let us RULE the world together
you the pencil;
and i, the RULER.

lets all begin 1.5 minutes of insane laughter
then proceeding with routine hiccups.

....
..
..
..
.

you may stop laughing.

im so lonely in my life
will you come and be my wife

start again.

2005-08-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

i dont usually use such words (at least after i got saved)
but here it is:

you bastard
and you bitch
fuck off.

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that felt good.
and i shall repent later.
:)

2005-08-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

Just closed my eyes and sang some random words during my quiet time.
These came out:

I see my Saviour, seated on His throne, in glory...
I see my Lord, seated on His throne, in glory...
I see my King, seated on His throne, in glory...

Holy, holy;
I look to You
Holy, holy;
I wait on You

Hold me;
As I worship You...

I don't even know if this song actually exists. I just sang it.
Whee :)

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Exams are finally over!!

.. Uh, tuition tomorrow?

2005-08-18T15:01:00.000+08:00

.. i look at the photos
.. and i wonder

.. how long is it going to take.

.. until, ......

2005-08-18T13:54:00.000+08:00

had high fever.
recovered just overnight.. but still, im seeing the doctor for my MC.
wahahaha thanks to those who prayed :)

im happy to say ive found myself again. seemingly endless threads of torment and pain has totally disfigured my pseudoself, rendering it useless. at least i learnt it the hard way.. rather, at least i learnt at all. i feel for those who never get to find themselves, ever.. living in torment with their disfigured bogus personality. i feel for them.

and im grateful that God has brought me to such a level of experience in Him and in the world that i know there's nothing more satisfying than Him alone. yet, many times ive fallen. even now. yes, even now. but i will rise again. i know God will wait. just like the father, who patiently awaits his child to return.

i have to admit im a greatly empathic person.
..and i have to admit i have strong intuition.

im not ready to take on the world.
but hey, im ready to take on myself :)

__ leave a tag or something. ciao.

2005-08-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

high fever.

2005-08-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

sam.. as usual. cinthia.. a little alienated. veron.. isolated. xinyi.. 'just in time' .. mengru.. blinked. pelin,.. same dance pose. POSE. -_-"

2005-08-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

now its the sisters' turn to be unready wahahaha. and the guys.. OI MATHEUS! :p

2005-08-15T22:51:00.001+08:00

and now the brothers are ready for the photoshoot :) .. no wait, what is tim doing?!